You've got mail...

and I love it!

I recently asked a small circle of close friends and family

 to write, 

on a 3x5 card, 

words of encouragement 

that I can open and read for daily inspiration 

when the going on the Camino gets tough.

(Yes,  I'm willing to carry the extra weight; 

the words enclosed in the envelopes will, no doubt,

lighten my emotional burden enough 
to warrant the decision.)

The first ones arrived the other day -

on the same day as my Camino 'passport'!

Coincidence?

No, I didn't think so either!

It's getting VERY real!

Can I just mention that NOT opening the letters immediately
is a new form of spiritual discipline for me?

How wonderful to have a whole packet of presents
waiting to be discovered -
one every day -
as a reward 
for getting up
and trying to walk!

And God laughed...

It was a dream I want to remember.

In it, I was railing at God; 

really letting him have it –

and, yes, I do that a lot; 

don’t worry He can take it.

I was letting Him know about my insecurities, 

my fear for the future -

a future that HE turned upside down, BTW – 

and how scary it is that I’m being asked
to leave all that I’ve known 

for a future I can’t see; 

a future that’s so unformed
and nebulous.  

I was crying, 

lamenting about leaving my ‘dream job’… 

at which point God chuckled 

and responded – 

"Dream job? 

Child, you’ve got to dream bigger”.

I woke up smiling.

I want to remember that God sometimes loves us too much 

to leave us where we are.

He dreams bigger;

and, with His help, 

so can I.